My F5 button is broken..

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Assalamu'alaikum everyone,

I'm not sure if anyone still follows and reads anything on this blog.. it's been almost 3 years since I last posted.

My last post being the one titled: "Am I weak?" dated back to Sept 2015.

Truthfully, I went through a lot between that time and now.. still going through a lot actually. But .. the dark clouds are starting to clear up for me.

At that time, I felt betrayed and hurt.. and so I started questioning a lot of things.. my family, my friends, my faith, my purpose, and ultimately ... I didn't see the point in trying to be better anymore. It seemed like all my efforts were just misunderstood.

Although, I knew that you can only stay committed to something if your intention is truly for Allah and nothing else.. because everything else in this world is temporary.. and constantly changing.

What I'm trying to say is... don't base your intentions on anything that is temporary... because then your motivation will also end prematurely..

So, how do you refresh your intention when your F5 button is broken? It's certainly not going to fix itself.. so why not just keep doing good and keep asking Allah to make you find purpose again?

Anyways.. for the time being i'm cleaning up some way overdue posts that have been in draft stage since 2 years ago.

Will be posting these up.

Wassalam.

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