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Feeling restless?

Assalamualaikum everyone,  The heart is the most important part of our body. Actions speak louder than words. What we do reflects on the condition of our hearts. This could be interpreted in so many different ways. For instance, if we love something, if we are truly passionate towards it, we would do pretty much ANYTHING & EVERYTHING to obtain and achieve it..  Looking back on my life, all that I've done... why have I done it? What was the driving force?  It was always about achievements, success, titles, where I come from, I was.. what people would refer to as a "paper-chaser"... busy chasing and rushing after every single thing possible... every certificate, every trophy, ... yes everything... and anything to make me feel like I was worthy like I had achieved something. Like ... I was not a failure. But why? Why is it so important for me to feel like I was something... that I am somebody.... And why did I feel like I wasn't good enough?  C
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My F5 button is broken..

Assalamu'alaikum everyone, I'm not sure if anyone still follows and reads anything on this blog.. it's been almost 3 years since I last posted. My last post being the one titled: "Am I weak?"  dated back to Sept 2015. Truthfully, I went through a lot between that time and now.. still going through a lot actually. But .. the dark clouds are starting to clear up for me. At that time, I felt betrayed and hurt.. and so I  started questioning a lot of things.. my family, my friends, my faith, my purpose, and ultimately ... I didn't see the point in trying to be better anymore. It seemed like all my efforts were just misunderstood. Although, I knew that you can only stay committed to something if your intention is truly for Allah and nothing else.. because everything else in this world is temporary.. and constantly changing. What I'm trying to say is... don't base your intentions on anything that is temporary... because then your motivation
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Am I weak?

Assalamu'alaikum, I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling but... I feel like i'm going crazy, like i'm losing my mind.. Its so funny because I feel like I can't even control my own thoughts & feelings. One moment I'm alright & the next I go into a really negative mood. I want to be ALONE.. Nobody understands me. Do you know what it feels like to be in a room full of people yet feel like you're alone.. I'm drowning and all I see..  people, people all around me who are breathing. My thoughts start to consume me... to the point it hurts for me to breathe. I feel so numb/empty yet I feel pain. It hurts so much more than simple physical pain... Because I don't know how to cure this... and no amount of medication can fix this. Maybe i'm too broken.. Ya Allah please forgive me if this..... if this is me being ungrateful & if this is me.... not putting enough trust in You. There are times when all kinds of d
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I can't hear you, inner voice.

Assalamu'alaikum, I know its been a long time since I posted anything.... I've been struggling with a lot. Y'know... cause life is hard. Yes, definitely. Sometimes you just feel this emptiness in your heart.... and you just can't understand why you feel so blue.... depressed.. upset.. lost.. The answer to this is in the Qur'an " Verily in the remembrance of Allah, do hearts find rest. " -[13:28] Hmm... I know this... yet I can't bring myself to feel it..  I try to reflect, to think about Allah... To think about all the numerous blessings I am lucky enough to have. Its funny because I keep getting this same feeling again, again & again.. I desperately try to busy my self... to distract my thoughts. Maybe deep down... I know why I feel this way... I know..... but I am in self-denial. I try to talk to myself... to find the root cause of the problem... and there, there it is... the inner voice shrouded by all these loud thoughts
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Islam vs islam- Is there a difference?

Assalamu'alaikum everyone, Islam is the religion, Muslims are those who are part of the religion Islam. Islam is PERFECT.. The Muslims? Not so much. We're only humans afterall... what do you expect? But wait..Is that how it should be? Should we just leave it the way it is? It's true we can never be perfect but that doesn't mean we should stop striving to be. Allah placed us on this earth for a reason: "..Indeed, I will make upon the earth a successive authority." They said, "Will You place upon it one who causes corruption therein and sheds blood, while we declare Your praise and sanctify You?" Allah said, "Indeed, I know that which you do not know.." [Surah Al-Baqarah:30]  We are .. put on this earth to be leaders! Not just to other people but to ourselves first and foremost!  In the above ayat, the angels mentioned the humans' capabilities of destruction and corruption.. And Allah answers by stating that Allah knows
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New Beginning

Assalamualaikum everyone, The past 4 months have been amazing, unbelievable and just life-changing. Never in my wildest dreams, did I imagine any of these events happening, ever. And a part of me is glad I didn't. There's an element of gratefulness that comes out of the surprise and initial "shock". And that's life, it's unexpected but we need to have faith that everything happens for a reason, and Indeed they do. As Muslims, we believe in  pre-ordainment. That is, what Allah s.w.t. has pre-ordained for us, will definitely happen. "Never will we be struck except by what Allah has decreed for us; He is our protector." And upon Allah let the believers rely." (Surah At-Tawbah:51) Therefore, we should have faith in Allah and His plans for us, surely Allah knows best.  “…and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.”  (Surah Baqarah: 216). Al-Ha
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